Tuesday 28 October 2008

茫然...

我何时才听得懂那位讲师所教的一切呢?我有没有能力完成所有的功课呢?我能不能倘然面对考试的压力呢?我能不能妥善处理人际关系呢?我能不能毕业呢?若毕业了,我找得到工作吗?我会不会找到我的另一帮呢?我注定一辈子单身吗?我爱的人,是不是一定不会是我的爱人呢?我想找个人来陪,来关心的心愿,是不是太奢侈了呢?常常感到很孤独,很空虚,我该怎么办呢?当我一个人躺在房间的床铺上,心里却扑通扑通快速跳个不停时,我该如何?为什么会这样?吃了哑巴亏后,是不是该继续忍气吞声呢?我该保持自我风格,还是为了迎合别人改变自己呢?被伤害之后,伤口尚未复原(不知何时才会痊愈)的同时,我是否应该表现出宽宏大量的气魄原谅他呢?人与人之间,真的只有利益可言吗?当我流泪的时候,是应该让人家知道,还是为了逃避别人的嘲讽(说你没用,男儿有泪不轻弹)而告诉人家那是只不过是汗滴呢?

太多太多的困扰,太多太多的不解;太多太多的疑惑,太多太多的茫然。对现在感到茫然,对未来亦然。谁能告诉我,答案在那?对答案的所在地和它也许会出现的时刻,亦感茫然...

欢庆屠妖节!

昨天是屠妖节哦!身为马来西亚三大民族之一-华人的我,怎么可以错过这个节日呢?虽然身在他乡,但心里却流着浓浓的祖国热血啊!(其实是想找借口煮咖喱吃)

为了能感受到屠妖节气氛,咖喱肯定少不了。有个朋友已经从马来西亚带了咖喱粉来,接下来的任务就是去菜市场买材料了。一行人浩浩荡荡的去了菜市场,决定了煮羊肉咖喱,便买了新鲜羊肉。只吃肉很不好的哦!咖喱也可以有菜的呀!顺便买了包菜,绿花椰菜(你们吃过咖喱放这玩意儿的吗?)及小玉米条。哇!万事俱备,只欠烹调了。

晚上终于到了!烹调咖喱时间开始!煮啊煮,煮啊煮...(过程不用说了吧!)终于完成了!好香啊!(小弟对烹饪略有自信的哦!)说明了欢庆佳节嘛,怎么可以不拍照呢?其中一个朋友便拿了照相机帮大家拍了照,之后才开始吃。真好吃!英国没有咖喱的。

两个小时过去了,咖喱还剩半锅。大家都吃不下了。真开心啊!能欢庆屠妖节,吃咖喱!

*呃...其实刚刚提及的一行人啊,大家的,其实是只有三个人,而且全是华人。有什么不对吗?三个华人就不能欢庆屠妖节啦!谁规定的!?哈哈!

Sunday 26 October 2008

culture shock~

Culture shock, based on the dictionary (Mr. Lee Leong Chiong said must always check dictionary), it simply means a feeling of confusion and anxiety that someone may feel when they live in or visit another country. In chinese is 文化冲击(在异国生活或访问时的一种困惑不安的感觉)。After I come to UK and stay for around 1 month, I really experienced it somehow. But I need to clarify that i never feel anxiety, what I feel is just purely confusion, and sometime feel novel. 我没有觉得不安,只是在某些事上觉得很困惑与新奇。

Now, let me list out something which are different here compare to Malaysia (maybe Asia):

1) Most of the shops here open at around 9am, but most of them (I think more than 90%) close at around 5-6pm. So basically we cannot buy stuff at night. In Malaysia, we always go shopping at night right?

2) Again more than 90% of the people here (including europe people and some foreigner) go clubbing. Everynight the clubs will open. So for the local people, after 5-6pm, which is after they close their shop or come back from school, most of them will go clubbing. They will dress themselves weirdly (for me is weired). Most of them will get drunk and started shouting and singing loudly anywhere without concern of others. I know in Malaysia people also go clubbing, but I never see that much people go clubbing and the same time, as well as get drunk and shout and sing at the same time! Here is normal for them. The other thing that I must salute them is, even they get drunk today, they still able to go back to their job and study on next day PUNCTUALLY! In Malaysia, a student will probably skip class or sleep in class.

3) The people here is very very very very punctual. For example, my class started at 9am, the lecturer will definitely come on time or earlier. Same as other activities. In Malaysia, hahaha! All malaysian know lah! No need to discuss thoroughly on this point. I am very very not used to it. They are too punctual! What for? Be late is our virtue mah! 迟到才显出你的大牌嘛!搞不懂!?

4) The chicken drumstick and thigh here is much more cheaper than chicken breast. This will never happen in Malaysia. Here 5 drumstick cost you 1.5 pound, but i chicken breast will cost you 3 pound! Malaysian should be happy because most of us like to eat drumstick more than breast meat.

5) I don't know why the people here seldom ride motorcycle. They will either drive a car or ride a bicycle. Walking is another option for them. I don't really see anyone here use motorcycle. In Malaysia, almost every teenagers know how to ride motorcycle and there are so many motorcycle on the road.

6) There are so so so many smokers here. Smoker? Malaysia also a lot lah! Apa hairan? OK, let me explain this more thoroughly. Here not only got a lot of male smoker, but also a lot of female smoker. From what I saw, almost 80% of the female here are smokers, including old aunties. In Malaysia I never saw that much of female smoker. Maybe the weather is too cold here???

7) There are so so so many people stroll along the street. The peculiar point here is that this will happen during every weekday's morning. Don't they need to work in the morning? Weekdays somemore. This will not happen on weekend, or will be less people on weekend. So, they only work during weekend???

8) There is NO chilli sauce here! In KFC, McD, supermarket, wherever, NO! Walau! So suffer! How to survive without chili sauce!?

9) The charges for local call here is more expensive than international call. In Malaysia, it goes the other way round.

10) Haha! I like this culture the most. The people here very open minded (I think). For ladies, they always dress very sexy. They don't mind to show off what they have,even in some different circumstances (some ladies do not have anything, but also like to show off. haha!) In my very personal opinion, i think that is good to be open minded. So this kind of culture should be disseminated to Malaysia as well for our own good. Malaysia Boleh! haha! (But sometime I really don't understand. Sometime the weather here is extremely cold and the wind is damn strong, they still dress themselves with very little clothes. Don't they feel cold???)


Those are the things that I feel shock and confuse because they are new to me. So... I hope i can get used to them as still have around 10 months to go on. (I think I had improved myself to get used to at least 1 point stated above, which is No. 10. Wuahahah!)

Saturday 25 October 2008

我成了部落客...

完全没想到自己竟然会成为一个部落客。之前总认为写这玩意儿的人很无聊!时间多啊!在网上写些无聊的东西,然后逼别人去读,还逼他们留言!tats just wasting you and your friend's time!之前在friendster有弄了个account,但那只是当我很有感触时才写的,所以根本没几篇(不会每天都心情感触的吧!)。

现在我身处学校图书馆。原本打算来温书的。坐了下来,开了电脑,上了MSN,看见我一个好友(阿瘦)的pm写了他的部落格account,便上去看看。这家伙,一个对我而言完全不可能做这种事的人,成了部落客?那真要瞧瞧他写了些什么了。哈哈!原来他还是在废!(想了解“废”的定义,叫他解释较好)看完了之后,心里开始痒痒了。他都弄一个了,我要不要呢?最后还是决定弄一个。在英国,其实有很多事都很新鲜,把它们写下来也不错呀!

就这样,我create了属于我的空间(小胖子-圣的空间)。阿瘦,若这是件好事,你功劳不小;反之,你罪孽深重啊!哈哈!搞了这么久,还没温书的,要做正经事了!拜拜!各位,后会有期!


(顺便说一下,刚刚在图书馆的某个角落的某张桌子,我看到一男一女买了个桶装的KFC在吃着。你没看错,我也没说错,在图书馆里吃KFC。WALAU!有没有搞错!图书馆是给你吃东西的吗?还买了一桶。怪事年年有,今年特别多...)